12.25.08 (day 15)

once you make
a decision like this,
looking
(in the mirror)
becomes an entirely new experience.
have you ever noticed
the way eyes shift
when confronted with their own lies?
it’s an exhausting exercise
in patience;
half-truths
replace silent ones
and this is not how it is supposed to be.
what do you do
when it’s too expensive to be you?
complications consume situations
until intonations
fall down
my spine
like raindrops
in spring.